Dividing The Equation

Back in 2005 I exercised, for the very first time, my right to vote. It is one of those privileges afforded to me living in a democratic country that I have all too often taken for granted. I didn’t really know what I was doing or why I was voting aside from the fact that my Grandmother had been a long running member of the Labour Party and so it just seemed the logical thing to put my vote that way.

During the 2010 General Election I was in Australia and didn’t feel as though it was important enough to me at the time. Moving on to the 2015 election and my vote for Labour was this time based on Ed Miliband’s promise to improve the standard of Adult Education which was of high importance to me given that that has been my area of work in recent years.  Continue reading “Dividing The Equation”

The Man A Ground Down

Lately I have been focusing a lot more on gratitude. It has been a big buzz word floating around my psyche for a very long time now, I just haven’t been able to get to grips with it. It is easy to list out things to be grateful for and understand it intellectually. What isn’t so easy is to understand it emotionally. To really feel grateful.

In the midst of a stressful work life back in 2013 I was introduced to Spirituality by my then coach Tony Selimi. It was a real eye opening experience for me because Tony helped me to see possibilities that included a rich and abundant life. I was smitten. The Secret, What The Bleep, I was hooked and there seemed like no going back.  Continue reading “The Man A Ground Down”

From Cradle To Crave

In the last decade I have seen a huge pendulum swing in my interests and hobbies. One that I never could have anticipated or even knew existed. From a hyperactive, fun loving social butterfly to a curious, introverted obsessive. The former led me to a desire to travel which subsequently led me to the latter.

Yet both ends of this intriguing spectrum actually boil down to an underlying behaviour which is my issue with authority and control. Ask any of my ex-girlfriends, I can be difficult to get along with, especially if I feel that someone is attempting to exert power over me in some way. I batten down the hatches and shut myself off completely. No one is getting anywhere near me.  Continue reading “From Cradle To Crave”

An Attitude Toward Gratitude

They say “ignorance is bliss”. I’m inclined to agree with them. Whoever ‘they’ are, they were certainly very wise. If I was given the opportunity to go back to my ignorant self, I am still at that point in my journey where I would be rather tempted. Though I can’t actually believe that I am saying that. And that is largely, if not all, down to a lack of gratitude and appreciation for the journey I find myself on.

Part of me really envies my old life whereby I only cared about the weekend, football and girls. Life was so simple back then. I would work Monday to Friday and then have fun Saturday and play football on Sunday. It was a time in my life that I also quite often took for granted. A longstanding habit I am really trying to kick right now.  Continue reading “An Attitude Toward Gratitude”

Battling Nihilism

Back when I was in sixth form I developed a bug for going out. It was a new and exciting time that gave me my first glimpse of adult life. Of course, this had to be balanced out by getting a job which could fund my social endeavours. My very first job was McDonalds which was a whole lot of fun and then I started working at the local Asda which was easier to get to.

There were vastly more people working at Asda so I got to meet all sorts of people which led to more nights out socialising. It also meant more opinions, ideas and thought processes that I was exposed to. One in particular was that of credit cards. (I’m going somewhere with this). Continue reading “Battling Nihilism”

The Attention Detention

I spent virtually all of my childhood staring into space and day dreaming about all kinds of stuff. It was only when playing sport that I was present and focused because that was competition time. I was someone that just had to win at everything I did. If I didn’t score the most goals or win the most races I felt as though I wasn’t good enough. Sport was my outlet for external validation.

In my adulthood I seem to have carried on that same desire for external validation, only this time I have applied it to a career perspective. When I hear people talk about great pioneers of the world and the super elite, I feel as though because I don’t match up to the same level of success that I am still not good enough. It has always really bothered me that I am not talked about in that same manner. Continue reading “The Attention Detention”